Chapter One
My wife?
The oven dinged. Dinner was ready. Jeannie glanced back at the kitchen and bit her lower lip. Suddenly, the hunger pangs she felt earlier dissipated. She was in no mood to sit down and eat.Ā
The silence in the room was deafening. For a moment, Jeannie thought her ears werenāt functioning right. They could practically hear a pin drop. Or perhaps it was her eyes. She couldnāt tell. There was no way Luka was in her living room.Ā
āI said, step away from my wife. Or did you not hear me the first time?ā
Jeannieās eyebrows furrowed. She wasnāt imagining it. Luka was actually in her living room. A million and one thoughts were racing through her mind. Was this about Lily? Luka was with her the last time I saw him. What in the world would give Luka the audacity to step foot into my home?
Aaron was still on one knee, confused. Jeannie herself was so confused, she froze. Her evening had gone from a romantic dinner to a scene out of a soap opera.
āExcuse me?ā Aaron scoffed and rose to his feet. āYour wife?ā
Luka crossed his hands. āI believe I was loud and clear. Get your hands off my wife. Now.ā
āLast I checked, Jeannie was divorced,ā Aaron said, still holding onto Jeannieās left hand. āYou have no authority here.ā
āI think I have more authority than you here. We have children together, after all.ā Luka glanced at Aaronās hand again. āGet your hands off. I wonāt say it again.ā
His effrontery was flabbergasting. Jeannie could not utter a word. She refused to believe the same Luka who had walked out of her life with his head hanging in shame was the same Luka standing there with so much confidence. Almost as if he owned the house. As if he owned her.
Jeannie knew she ought to say something. She knew Aaron was waiting for her to say something. But she couldnāt. Her mind hadnāt fully processed what was happening. A part of her was waiting for Luka to laugh and state he was merely joking.Ā
Finally, Aaron took his hand off Jeannieās. āI think you should leave. If you havenāt read the room, weāre sort of in the middle of something. Itās rude of you to barge in here and make demands when you have no right to, donāt you think?ā
Luka chuckled and shook his head. āLook, man. I have no idea who you are to Jeannie. But I need to speak to my wife, and this show you have going on here doesnāt concern me, either. Just step away from her. Maybe you can come back some other time.ā Luka turned to Jeannie with rheumy eyes. āJeannie, we need to talk.ā
āAbout what?ā Jeannie heard herself say. āLuka, what are you doing here?ā
Luka gestured at Aaron. āWe will talk when he leaves,ā he said.
āIām not leaving,ā Aaron said, slightly irritated. āIf anyone is leaving, then it should be you. From the look on Jeannie's face, she wasnāt expecting you. Youāre the uninvited guest, and you should leave.ā
āJenny?ā Luka called her softly.
Donāt call me that.
Jeannie would have said it if her lips werenāt frozen shut.
Now they were both waiting for her to say something. Jeannie stared back and forth at the two men, feeling the heat rise in her throat. She didnāt want to believe any of it was happening. Just a minute ago, she had her head in the clouds as she stared down at Aaron on one knee. They had just kissed. Her first breathtaking kiss in what seemed like forever. It was difficult to bring her head down from the clouds and back to reality.Ā
Aaron reached for Jeannieās hand again and squeezed it. āJeannie, whatās wrong?ā he asked quietly. āYouāre pale.ā
Before Jeannie could respond, Luka charged at Aaron. In three strides, he had his hands on Aaronās shirt and was shoving him away.
āI told you not to touch her, didnāt I?ā Luka rasped.
Jeannie gasped and was about to turn her attention to Aaron, who had staggered three steps back, when she saw the rage in Aaronās eyes. Jeannie recoiled, sensing that her living room was about to turn into a wrestling ring. Aaron reached for Luka and shoved him so hard, he fell to the floor.
āAaron!ā Jeannie blurted.Ā
Jeannieās mind couldnāt deal with violence. It frightened her and made her nauseous.
Luka scrambled to his feet, red with rage. āYou littleāā
āStop!ā Jeannie tried to yell, but her voice cracked. āPlease, no fighting.ā
āJeannie, tell whoever this is to leave,ā Luka rasped. āWe need to talk. You and I.ā
Jeannie massaged her temple. āIs this about Lily?ā
āLily? No. Lilyās fine. Sheās on a movie set till next week.ā
āThen leave,ā Jeannie said. āLuka, leave. Please. I am exhausted from all the yelling. You have no right to come here demanding anything. Honestly, I donāt even understand where you got the audacity from. But right now, I donāt want to know. Please leave.ā
Luka scoffed. āIām not leaving.ā
āShe asked you to leave,ā Aaron reiterated. āDonāt you see that your presence is affecting her?ā
āYou might want to ask yourself why that is,ā Luka said and shrugged his shoulders. āWe have history, if she didnāt tell you.ā
āYeah, traumatic history. I heard all about it. Leave, while she is asking nicely.ā
Luka turned to Jeannie. āReally, Jenny? You want me to leave?ā
āI am this close to punching you if you donāt,ā Aaron rasped, taking one step closer.
āIām not leaving you here,ā Luka said and crossed his arms. āLike I said, I came here to talk to Jeannie. But seeing thereās someone here trying to take advantage of her vulnerability, Iād rather stay. You know, just to make sure sheās safe.ā
Aaron groaned and grabbed Luka by the shirt. He curled his fingers into a fist and was about to lift it when Jeannie screamed.
āWould you both, pleaseā¦leave.ā
Simultaneously, they turned to stare at Jeannie. āBoth of you. Leave my house,ā she repeated. āIād like to be alone.ā
Aaron let go of Lukaās shirt and walked toward her. āJeannieāā
Jeannie stared at the ground trying to steady her breathing. āAaron, please leave,ā she asked in a whisper, stepping back.Ā
Reluctant at first, Jeannie lifted her head. She could see the disappointment in his eyes before he stepped back and turned around. Aaron picked up his jacket and without saying a word, walked out of the house.
There was silence for a few seconds before Jeannie heard Luka gather his bags from the ground. He stood upright with them and waited till he locked eyes with Jeannie.
āIāll come by when youāre calm,ā he said. āGood night, Jenny.ā
Even with the house empty, she still couldnāt think straight. Perplexed, suddenly exhausted and confused, Jeannie trudged over to the couch and crashed on it. Her eyes were wide openāshe had forgotten how to blink. Just a couple of minutes ago, she was dancing in Aaronās arms. Now, she was on the couch, drained.
And the oven was still dinging.
* * *
August, early ā90sā¦
āHow about Poppy? I think Poppy is a nice name for a girl.ā
āLuka, do you want our child to get bullied in school? Poppy? Who names their child Poppy?ā
āCreative people do,ā Luka answered. āWhat? Poppyās a nice name. Very feminine. Itās cute. Donāt you think?ā
āYeah, when sheās like five. Imagine an eighteen-year-old with the name āPoppy.ā Not so cute now, is it?ā
Luka chuckled and wrapped his arms around Jeannie. āWell, I thought it would sound nice with your name. Jenny and Poppy. Mother and daughter. Luka, Jenny, and Poppy.ā
Jeannie snuggled into his arms. āI like it when you call me Jenny. Thatās weird, isnāt it?ā
āItās not weird. I like calling you Jenny. Remember how that started?ā
Jeannie smiled and shut her eyes. āYeah, after we met in seventh grade, we were paired for a science project. I think that was when you asked for my name and I said, āHi, Iām Jeannie.ā Then you said, āNice to meet you, Jenny. And I just let you call me Jenny for like two weeks.ā
Luka threw his head back in laughter. āThen Cathy corrected me, but I didnāt stop. I wanted to be different, so I made it my nickname for you.ā
āAnd youāve been calling me that since we were teenagers.ā
They were on a spread of white cloth near the edge of the field, watching the reflection of the orange sun on the still lake. Jeannie had suggested the idea of a picnic for them to unwind. They had packed the lunchboxes with pizza, fruits, and wine and set out in the late afternoon. It was Jeannieās sophomore year in college. Lukaās, too. Given how tedious college life was, it took a while for them to finally make time for themselves after being apart for a week.
Finding out that she was pregnant had come as a major shock to Jeannie. She had passed out when the doctor announced it to her after a series of tests. Barely twenty years old, Jeannie still depended on her parents to survive. Her strict, Christian parents. The last few weeks had been nerve-wracking for her. Sooner or later, she had to tell her parents about the news.
Luka had taken the news better than she had expected. He was taken aback at first and was unsure if he was ready for the responsibility, but later on, heād thawed out. They had spent hours talking and convincing themselves that they were going to figure it out. Jeannie was not sure about that, given that they were merely college students with no source of income, but she chose to remain optimisticāfor her unborn babyās sake.
āAnd what if itās a boy?ā Jeannie asked, tilting her head up. āWhat would we name him if itās a boy?ā
Luka stared into space. āGerard.ā
Jeannie's smile turned into a frown. āYou really want him to get beat up, donāt you?ā
āNow youāre exaggerating.ā
āYou know what I mean,ā Jeannie said. āAnyway, one thing this conversation has taught us is that you are terrible at coming up with names, Luka.ā
Luka scoffed. āWell, I donāt see you coming up with any names,ā Luka said. āLetās hear your suggestions, Miss Jeannie Miller.ā
āHmmā¦ā Jeannie sighed. āIām thinkingā¦Fiona, Adeline, Francescaā¦If itās a boy, then, Felix, Stephan, William, Harry.ā
āGreat. Straight out of a princess book,ā Luka said. āShouldnāt we name our baby something that has meaning?ā
āOh, so the name Poppy has some meaning?ā she asked.
āYes, it does,ā Luka answered. āOr it will. You know what? Iām standing by Poppy, and no one will tell me otherwise.ā
Jeannie giggled. āWeāll see about that.ā
They had been dating for five years, since they were seventeen. Luka was like Jeannieās other half. They did everything together, had great understanding of each otherās minds and actions, and liked the same things. Luka always knew how to turn Jeannieās frown into a smile. She believed genuinely in her heart that he was her soulmate, and no one could tell her otherwise. Not even her parents.
They never said it out loud, but Jeannie knew they didnāt approve of her relationship with Luka. For some reason, her mother never liked Luka. She always told Jeannie to be careful with him, because apparently, she didnāt like his smile. Her mother always claimed Luka never smiled with his eyes, and she had a problem with it.
Jeannieās father, on the other hand, didnāt want Jeannie dating at all. He hated the idea of her getting entangled with a man at a young age and was a firm believer in waiting till after college before dating a manāand preferably waiting till marriage before having sex.Ā
Now, she was pregnant, with a man they didnāt like, and out of wedlock. There was no way on Godās green Earth that they were going to be receptive to the news.
āWhat are we going to do about my parents?ā Jeannie asked. āWe need to tell them, Luka. They need to know.ā
āI know,ā Luka mumbled. āYou know they donāt like me, right? They never say it, and they always force a smile when they see me, but I can tell. They havenāt liked me since I was fourteen years old.ā
āTell me about it,ā Jeannie groaned. āI have no idea why. Whatās there not to like?ā
āThatās what Iām saying!ā Luka voiced.Ā
Jeannie giggled and hugged him tightly. āWe just have to find a way to make them see what I see. The perfect man for me. Trust me, my parents love me. Iām sure with time, they will understand. For now, we need to tell them somehow. I donāt want them finding out on their own. Itāll be better if we sit them down and tell them we want to move in together, and that weāre having a baby. What do you think?ā
Luka sighed and nodded. āI really think thatās our only option at this point. More of the convincing has to come from me. I might not have a job right now, but I will get one soon, and Iāll take care of you, Jeannie. Iāve already gone to the coffee shop by the school and I applied. They interviewed me and promised to call back. Iām positive Iāll get the job. Just trust me.ā
Jeannie pecked him on the cheek. āI trust you, Luka.ā
āThank you,ā Luka said, stroking her hair. āI love you, my Jenny.ā
Jeannie tightened her arms around him. āI love you, too, Luka. Always.ā